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Circle Of Life

The cycle of life, is more than being born and dying. It is finding who you are as an individual. Living your Life in the best way possible. Love hard, Show kindness, Build Strength, Be Honest, Resilient, Respectful, Have integrity, Standards and Boundaries.

So, so important to know that it doesn’t have to be a bad life. You can make your life a good one by taking care of your mind, body, and soul. Positive affirmations are good. I am beautiful, Strong, Resilient, Honest, I am loved by others and I Love myself. I always do my best to stay kind, and Love unconditionally. Life is too short to waste on all negatives in this world.

If you take care of yourself you will see the biggest difference in your own mood, as I do mine. I still have bad days, just like today. I was all of a sudden Angry because of our people being kidnapped, killed. It breaks my heart. Also to add if anything was to ever happen to me, it was someone else who did it. I say this because I refuse to leave this lifetime by my own hands. “Suicide” I am adament to continue life without Alcohol and drugs.

Paranoia is definitely a withdrawl affect after quitting cold turkey. Probably shouldn’t have done that, I came to a point of death. It was a struggle to get through it but I am so Happy I had guidance to overcome the bad words. Good words are always better for sure.

Stay Shining

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Who do you think you are?

I am so Angry! Why me? Keep asking myself the same questions over and over again. I am working so hard on my mental health. Trying to figure out who is the cause of all this pain. It sure isn’t me hurting myself.

Every Child Matters, No more stolen sisters. I placed my stone at the Zion church I prayed the entire Journey rolling my Boulder. Fingers were in pain, knees scraped up, feet are getting stronger. Sun burn galore. I am trying to hear you Creator. I pray and pray and pray. Please help me.

Give me the strength to overcome this pain to our people. Show me the way. I Love you, I Love me. I need guidance. Please answer me, help me. I thank you for all that you do and all that you are. I LOve you, we all Love you. Amen, Y^wako

I will work my but off to help my people and protect our lands. Who do you think you are? I know I am going to accomplish something amazing. Await for me outside your door. I shall spin three times and clap three times. You will repent, for if you do Not, God will not show you pitty, nor mercy. You will be sent to the dark world, everyone calls Hell. Leave my people alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is my last warning. I am Angry and I will get Justice. I WILL GET SALVATION FOR MY PEOPLE.

How do I know? Creator spoke to me and has shown me so so much. Don’t think you can hide from this. All the information I have is put in a safe place and if anything happens to me, you will suffer the consequences.

Creator give me the strength to help save my people from the “Mind Changers”. Guide me in the right direction. Give me the Courage to confront my fears. Knowledge me more so I fully understand. Y^wako

(Added) I wrote this in a hurt and angered state of mind. I apologise for that. I pray that I will be forgiven for allowing my weakness to get the best of me. I should have said.

I understand your in pain, we all are. Every single human on this planet is in pain. I can’t imagine how you may feel. I do know that you have the strength to overcome those “demons” in your head that tell you it’s a good thing to kidnap or murder people out of spite. I would never wish pain upon anyone. I know I get angry but this post was so good to release. I am staying positive. I hope you find the Love in your heart for yourself and others, no matter the level they are in life. You can be happy too, I promise. It is hard but we can all work together if we try and be mindful of others situations and feelings. I just know you will feel so much better if you confess to your wrong doings. Ask for forgiveness from your god you look up too. God Forgives and with Forgiveness comes Happiness. So state of mind has changed. I have calmed down. Interesting choice of words I used while being angry. Stay Kind to each other, smile, say hi, we all are human and we all have feelings, emotions. Like they say ” It takes a village to raise children”, so lets work together to teach our children how kind and Loving the world can be. No more hate. Peace and Love.

Stay Shining

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A Doozy

It is Amazing how we trick ourselves into thinking something that isn’t true. Why I do this to myself is due to childhood trauma. Thats okay, God is with us all. Our paths are built because of him. I absolutely Love and Thank him for all he has done for me in my life. I wouldn’t be this strong without knowing that I have him.

Lack of sleep due to medication. Hahaha time for a doctors appointment. I have faith that God will protect me and guide me in the right direction. Love ❤

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Ha……

I know who you are. Interesting enough I thought I was going crazy. More than just one. I figured it out just took me a good bit to process. I was blind but now I see.

Stop being Scary and confront me. Say Hello. I won’t do anything unless you give me reason to. I know now and I want you to confess to your s**t. I am done being afraid. If something happens know that I will put up a fight. You obviously know me since you know I know. Hahahaha

Have a good day and don’t be scared.

Stay Shining

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41 Days sober, 2 hours of sleep

The roughest night I have had since the starting of my Healing Journey. I am so, so tired but I can’t seem to force myself to sleep. Definitley stressors that are affecting me.

I know I will be okay. We all have bad days. I do struggle still. Hahaha I am Human. I praise others to bring light into my life. My friend told me, “Supporters need Support too.” How honest is that.

I have to praise myself for all of the healing I have done and continue to do. It is really hard but I have faith that I am going to be okay.

I do hope everyone has a Fantastic day, Sincerely. ❤

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Uncle P

I miss you uncle. Growing up I didn’t realize how much you had to do. Measures you have taken to protect your children. You kind sir are a very Strong, Wise man. Amazing Father.

I know your Journey has been a good one, in fact an Amazing one. You not only taught your children but they taught you as well. They may have rebelled, Look at them now though. What Beautiful souls they truly are. I hope you had a really good Fathers day. Love you

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The Music Artist

Not gonna lie I have had a few “one night stands.” I am not ashamed of this. I actually met a man and he had a very rough life. I seen his shine though. He was different. Interestingly he wants to become a rapper. I asked him what his Aspiration was in life. He answered so fast. It was hillarious. Cute actually. He glowed when he talked about it.

I do hope he is well and knows he has the Strength to overcome the “demons”- Bad medicine, that people tend to give off. I was actually very toxic. I really really was. I swear I had bad medicine given to me.

You wouldn’t understand this. It comes from my Indiginous culture. Please take care of yourself. Remember you matter. You can do anything you want to do with the positive support of even one person. Someone to root you on.

Stay Shining

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Oldest Nephew

Hey you, Yeah you. Hahaha Don’t ever think I could forget you. I have you in my thoughts every single day. I Love you so, so much! I wish you seen you the way I do.

Technically your mine. Hahaha Kidding. I hope you can forgive me for the pain I have caused you. I am bawling my eyes out right now. You didn’t and don’t deserve an unhealthy Aunty. I am fighting and I am fighting hard. We can heal our family, first we must heal ourselves.

I see your shine, I see your scream to release. It’s okay to do that. If you don’t want to talk about it, you can always write it down. I am so proud of you for all of your accomplishments. So, So Proud of you. I Love you so, so much! ❤

Stay Shining

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My Youngest Brother

I want to start by saying I Love you very much. You looked up to me and I was more of a bad influence than good. I hope you can forgive me for my behavior and knowing what trauma and pain I have caused.

I am so Proud of you! I still talk to Grandma, not everyday but when I remember. Hahaha I have pictures of us from when I was around. I wish I could change how I was but I cannot. For that I am sorry.

You are and always will be my Little Brother. I Love you so much! 💗

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Great Aunty G

My Great Aunt G is in my thoughts today. She has made the biggest impact in my life. She is no longer with us in her body. Her spirit is within all of us. She helped protect Indiginous families to heal their wounds from the past. So that the children can be the best them that they could possibly be.

She showed what Strength and Love was. I didn’t realize this until today. An advocate for Indiginous children. So Beautiful. Inside and out. The kindest woman. I Love her and miss her so much. I know she is with me and my family today.

Stay Shining

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