Today is Monday, October 17, 2022. Day 7 of my sobriety. I found today to be a better day. I had an appointment with an old boss of mine and I have to say it went well. I start my first work day on Thursday. I was so anxious this morning. I awoke at 5:30 am and I didn’t want to go back to sleep because I was worried I wouldn’t of had enough time to get ready for my appointment.
You know out of all the hard days I have had, there are so many good ones. I have spent a lot of time at my Sisters house because I didn’t want to be alone. It made me sad to be alone even though I have a beautiful cat. Oh yeah my cat talks. Haha but besides that I have always wanted someone by my side. Today really made me thankful for what I have because many people don’t have what I have.
I did a lot of reading today from a book called “Braiding Sweetgrass” that a friend had given me. I am so thankful for this book because it has so much knowledge of how things used to be and what certain plants are and what they are used for. Just like little stories.
I managed to do a lot of writing, as well as a little bit of coloring. My mood has been good today and for that I am thankful to our Creator. I still have sadness happening but it isn’t overloading me, thankfully. I even got to spend a little bit more time with my Sister, Mom, and Nephew. Not to much time but just a little and for that I am thankful.
I am thankful for all the people in my life whether I talk to them or not because I still feel loved and I have learned many lessons. I find my sadness is because I miss my children running to me calling out “Mommy”. I feel that I had taken that for granted when I did have them before I had my Mental Breakdown.
So even though I am alone and sad at times I am still thankful for what I have and who I do have in my life. I wish I could stay this happy forever but I know that life is all about learning and that there will be more hard days to work through. Oh how I do miss my babies that are not babies anymore. I am thankful that I will be seeing them this Wednesday. They help me to continue on the good path I am on. I am not only healing for myself but for my children too.