Thank you A

She was hesitant at first. She still helped me. She wanted to have coffees and talk. I eventually pushed her away, after all the support she had shown me.

I was walking with my Mom today and I seen a car pull into a parking lot. I have seen this car often. So I watched as the car turned out and drove off. I was staring and seen the driver with their hood on pulled tight. I don’t know how they could see while driving.

I started laughing and my mom said “what?”. I told her who I thought it was. I think my family thinks I am crazy. I also do think I am crazy as well but in a good way. Odd ball. Better yet I am very unique. Lol

I texted her, she replied. So when we get together I am gonna ask her. Hopefully I am not crazy. Hahahahaha

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Curiosity

I am curious to know how women and men want to be treated? Do we all want to be treated the same? Or is our look on life completely different?

After all we all have the same emotions. I am trying to understand everything. Like I have been born again. Lol I suppose that’s a good thing. I just want to know everything about everything. It’s pretty cool. I am learning a lot. About myself as well as others and we all are not much different at all. What’s your thoughts?

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Hey Lady!

Moon sister. Not blood related but related by invisible adoption. Said by me. Hahahah I want you to know how Amazing you are. No matter how hard things get. You always, always find the strength to get out of it.

It has been a very, very tough few years. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I mean that. I Love you sister. Too the Moon and back. I am so proud of all of your accomplishments. You are a really good mom. Tell your son I said hello. Thank your man for me for not giving up. Love you

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Intimacy

“Close familiarity or friendship; closeness.”

I crave intimacy, not sexually. emotionally, friendships are what I crave. I enjoy company of other so, so much. There is so much more to life than just “sex”. I remember being misserable and I would push my ex away. I was rude, inconciderate, disrespectful. I was Majorly depressed.

I was Majorly depressed from my past. My childhood. It took a lot of Strength, Courage, Hope, Honesty, Forgiving not only myself but others too. I have been to the deepest, Scariest moments in my life. Too many to count. I have always been a danger to myself but not others.

Never wanted to blame others for their actions because it is them who needs to realize their place in the situation. No control, I always wanted to have some type of control over something but so does everyone. Mine was intimacy before.

I went from lack of sex drive, to high sex drive. That doesn’t mean I am going to lower my worth and find pleasure elsewhere. If get the jist of what I am saying. Communication, Friendship, Love, Honesty, Respect, Trust, Hope. All of it. Thats my thoughts on this. lol

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Men

I was told by a very wise man, that “The hard Love people were given was not the proper love they needed.” I completely understand this. It is hard for many of us. It really did traumatize a lot of people. To make someone feel unloved. Whether it was unintentional or taught. It is not okay.

What is okay is saying sorry, saying yes, I made a mistake, Yes I cry, Yes I get angry. Everything is okay to feel.

I also want to add that there is one specific man I was talking to and he was so positive. Very supportive. We no longer talk. I understand why. I am okay with this.

I do hope he is well. I hope he also understands that he has helped me so, so much. He is very Inspirational in my eyes.

I swear every person I meet, I can see who they really are as an Individual. Sometimes it takes a while but mostly I can see. Men don’t have to be “hard”. You can still be “manly” if your respectful, kind, caring, loving. We are all human after all. My friend also told me, “Supporters need support too.”

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Sister from another Mr.

The first time I met you, I could feel your pain. I am 100 percent serious. You also were very intimidating if I am being completely honest. Thats your Strength, Your not afraid to say what needs to be said. You grew on me, You were my bestfriend. My sister from another mister. Hahaha

I hope you don’t mind that I do still consider you my sister. So what if our Parents are not together. That shouldn’t change the respect we have for each other. You are my sister, don’t care what anyone thinks, honestly. Hahaha

I see your beauty inside and out. How hard you fight, Your strength withing yourself. You have always been one of my favorite people. I hope you can forgive me for any pain I have caused you. I appreciate you. I thank you for being you and not being afraid. Sisterly love to you.

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