Strength- Missing person

Just found out she was found a long time ago. My heart feels okay now. I was so scared. I will keep this up as a reminder. Also the fact that I did my best to spread the word when I didn’t know she was found. Life is scary I know she has The Courage to Change.

To me strength is not about physical strength. To me strength is to overcome the fear of “bad judgement”. Strength is to know how important you are in this life. Show your strength and Courage. Don’t fear the outcome. That is strength. To accept your emotions and your entirety, Love yourself whole.

Strength is to accept the things you cannot change. I made a phone call at 3am last night. Around there. I went for a drive yesterday and I was with my Mom, and sister. A Indiginous woman was standing on the median holding a sign. I have a tendancy to stare sometimes. Not intentionally.

Well at whatever time it was, I was on my phone and seen a missing person report that lloked just like the woman standing on the median.

I called crime-stoppers to report that I had seen her. They did give me a tracking number. Last night I slept only 3 hours. I went for a walk this morning with my mom. I told her about it. Which then reminded me about the writer I emailed. Who had no clue what I was talking about. Even though she was the one who wrote the article.

So she said I should report it to the police, in the email. I did that. I called them and left a message. The moment I left to go to the bathroom. Washing my hands I think. My phone rang. I missed the call. So I called back and left another message. Nothing.

I can’t sleep knowing she hasn’t been found. I asked my sister to drive me around to look for her. She couldn’t and also reminded me that this is out of my control.

I am happy I was able to give them the tip from 9 or 10 am on that day. June 14, 2022. It saddens me. I even screamed: “Stay Strong” She turned to look and i was trying to mouth it to her.

Her name is Samantha Janes. She is 29 years old and the last time I seen her was standing on that median holding a cardboard box sign. Wearing black short, shorts, Black hair tied back, I don’t recall foot wear or eye color. I think she had a tank top on.

I really am asking and praying that our ancestore protect her and that the creator direct her the right way.

Strength to know I made an effort. I really do hope she is found. Thank you for reading.

Great Grandma Dorothea

My great grandma had 4 children that I am aware of. She had 2 boys and 2 girls. My great grandma loved to bake. Cakes were her specialty and decorating them. I see where my grandma inherited the baking. My great grandma was a very sweet woman my mom said.

My mom told me that my great grandma let her drive the car to learn. She wasn’t supposed to. Hahaha, Love it.

My mom told me a story about my brother and great grandma Dorthea. My brother must have been around the age of 4 or 5. He was outside playing, he came into the house. No one knew he had something in his hands. My brothers hands were concealing a certain amphibian. He came running in happily. Walked up to our great grandma and said: “Can I show you what I found” Big smile on his face, he waas so excited to show someone. Great grandma said: “yes, let me see”. My brother opened his hands to reveal a frog. As soon as he opened his hands, the frog jumped at our great grandmother. She did a tiny shriek, then started laughing.

I know there are so many stories in my family. I hope I can learn some more. Love them all.

Stay Shining


No matter how dark or bright everyones blogs are. They are so important to me. Writing is the release. To me I find it my go to. I would rather type than talk. Hahaha Introverted.

I am seeing so much understanding of you all. I can relate to every emotion in a situation or story, I feel deep. Intuned with my emotions. I Adore seeing everyones personalities. That shine I have been searching for withing myself has started arising. Not only from the outside world but here on this platform. It really is a blessing. Thank you Nicole! Love you girl. I am so happy you shared this app with me. Thank you wordpress for allowing me to express without judgement. Thank you, all of you beautiful souls who are putting the effort into what you Love. The teaching, Knowledge I am recieving is uncomparible to others on the street.

To see not only my true beauty, I see everyone single one of you individually. We all are different and thats okay. Why would you want to be anyone other than you? Thats no fun. I love you all. Thank you for being you.

Stay Shining


After I had my daughter, she had to of been about 6 months or so. I decided to go back to school to get my OSSD, as well as my PSW Certificate. I did I Graduated both in the same year. Such a huge accomplishment.

I met a sweet, kind, quiet woman while I was there and she was basically the only one who befriended me. You know who you are girl! Sharing food with me almost everyday, coffees, projects. I am so Thankful to have had you by my side at that time.

So understanding and honest. I do miss you. You are a grandmother now and I know that you are one Super Awesome Grandma. I am proud of you. Proud of your accomplishments. I am so Proud of who you are as a Mom. Thank you again for being my friend. ❤

Stay Shining


Growing up we fought a lot. Always hitting each other and yelling when we disagreed. That was our siblingship. We hated each other but loved each other. My first best friend. Brother, I miss you. I miss hanging out all the time and talking about life.

My brother and I used to be best friends expecially as teens. Thats where we learned a lot about our emotions together and seperately. No one knew my brother was schitzophrenic. There were signs but we didn’t have knowledge of them.

Unfortunately my little brother, best friend fell. When he fell, he tried to get back up but just couldn’t seem to do it. I wish things were different but thats the acceptance of life.

Your not crazy little brother. You are unique, so smart, Strong. You have the Courage, Strength, and Love in yourself. I believe in you. I hope that you can forgive me for the hurtful words and pain I caused you. I forgive you for the behavior that was and is not yours. I miss you little brother! Love you

Stay Shining