I can do this, is what I remind myself. I can push as hard as I can to get up the hill as best as I can. Exhillarating the pain, sweat, control of my breath. They say “no pain, no gain”, “You will feel weak while your getting stronger”.
The hard work I put myself up for is healthy. I have control over when I walk, unless something comes up. You know, the things I cannot control. Other than that it is all my choice. No one is forcing me to do anything. It is all me, me knowing my worth and walking because I Love it.
Once upon a time I used to run. I loved running. Until about 2018, my right knee popped out of place. Now I have to be very aware of my walking. Keeping my knees strong.
Just before I power up those hills, I prepare myself with breathing. In through the nose and out through the mouth as best as I can. 35 Days Sober!