“Using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.”

My instincts are very strong. I almost feel as if people are following me. As scary as that sounds, I definetely think I am overthinking. I have told my Mom, Ex, and I am sure Nicole.

I cried today because I have convinced myself that people are following me. I was talking to my ex, he didn’t laugh but kind of looked worried. He reassured me that no one is following me. I cried because what if I am schizophrenic. Bahaha not the first time I have thought this.

Accepting the feelings and emotions is what I am working on. So I am constantly “Self Checking” like my friend reccommended. I also have that instinct to pick up a pen or start typing. It’s like I just know something. Figuring out what is making me think this is important.

I also refuse to stop walking just because of a paranoia. Gonna have to invest in some extra safety gear. To feel unsafe at anytime is not my thing. Fear is not going to stop me from doing the things I love to do.

Stay Shining

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