“Me, Myself, and I”

Alright, today has been a good day. I noticed in this moment I am feeling “off”. I enjoy looking out my window and seeing what is going on outside. When people walk by. I suppose I enjoy the different scenery in those few moments as people walk by. I also have a habit of staring. May come off as creepy. Lol, Thats my thoughts.

When I was younger I did this all the time. “Space Out” I stared a lot at people. Almost as if I am reading them. I feel energy, emotions. Say your sad, I will most likely feel sad with you. I always try and stay positive.

The main person I have issues with is myself. It is a constant teaching to myself. Fights go on in this head of mine every day. A battle of emotions, the good and bad. Thankfully I can work through the bad and focus more on the good.

I still am very worried about what others think but definetely not enough to fall to their petty levels. I am not a petty person. I could be but choose not to because we are all human. We all make mistakes. I like to treat people how I want to be treated. I do get angry, I have enough Strength to overcome the negative outbursts.

How can I explain this?, I put on this strong face. I am strong, I am also human. So I have a choice. I can either be down about what I think everyone thinks of me. Or I can be Happy that it doesn’t matter what they think because I am me. I am always going to be me. I am not changing for no one.

One more thing. Say if someone does have an issue with me? They go and spread a rumor. You know that this rumor is not true. Do I get mad at myself for allowing it?, or do I ignore it and focus on myself. At the end of the day it is just me. Yes even I have my family here with me. I make my own choices for the most part right. So even if someone doesn’t like me, it really doesn’t matter at the end of the day. At the end of the day it is just me. Gotta work on it for myself. Learning to Love myself. hmmmmmm maybe I am a bit confused. I will get it soon. Gotta keep on working at this. Hahaha

Stay Shining

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