I get this intense feeling to get out for a long walk. I am very anxious. I am always concerned about what every other person is going to think of me. Like that song: me, myself, and I by G-Eazy. I get a lot of Courage from music. I can relate to all of them in some way. Sad, Angry, Happy, Scared, etc. I must be that Anxious, I think my neighbors are out to get me. Hahahaha Trying to make me feel unwanted. This is all in my thoughts. I feel like they are always watching me. Bahahaha I have got to calm down. It is so hard sometimes to not get overworked. I know or feel like someone is going to say something negative to me. I am not a schizophrenic. At least I havent been diagnosed.
What if we all are a little Schitzophrenic? I would believe that for sure. We are the voices in our own heads. We are the ones who bring our own selves down. We hurt ourselves because we don’t want to hurt anyone else. Hold on I hurt myself because I dont want to hurt anyone emotionally, or physically. I have released the Beast before and I don’t like it. I will if I need to. It takes a lot unless I am drunk. Thank goodness
I dont drink anymore. I am so Proud of myself. I have come a very long way to finally break free from allowing other people to bother me. Maybe I just don’t like people in general. Not true but was a thought. Hahaha I think kindness is the best way to deal with a situation. Do bring the B***h out if you need to. Always try to stay as calm as you can. Like I said, for me personally it takes a lot for me to hurt someone.
Alright, I am gonna go for a walk now. I am too worked up. So deep breaths. I shall be as calm as I can be. I don’t care what people think. I am Beautiful, Strong, Resilient, Kind. I am me.