I have always thought I was overly obsessive. If I sent someone a text and they didn’t respond right away, I get upset. Then I would say things that I didn’t mean to say. I get angry.
I get sad when people make plans and don’t follow through. I have put in my head that the people I want, don’t want me. Panic and anxiety. Fear and sadness. A state of depression.
I am not obsessive. I am worried you will leave my side. So to speak.
Separation anxiety makes relationships a bit tricky. I noticed I push hard to be noticed by someone. Once I get noticed, all I want to do is communicate with that said person. What I didn’t know, I get attached fast and easy. If my standards are not met I push away.
I have set my standards very high for people. Emotionally for the most part. It took me a bit to understand that “Life doesn’t revolve around me”. You know what revolves around me, is myself. Hahaha. Truly that’s my thoughts. I have always relied on everyone else to tell me what I should be doing. I would get upset if it was the truth. Ignoring people for being right. That’s what happens when you don’t know who you are. It happens when you don’t have self-Love.
Like my friend said “stop comparing yourself to others”. Dont rely on others to make you Happy. It is difficult at times, you can refocus yourself on you. You know why, because I believe in you.