Music

Starting Friday May 13, 2022 I have been playing music basically all day. Sometimes when I sleep. So soothing. I can relate to every song that plays or I remember a memory. I can feel the music.

Have you ever heard of that to “feel the music” not physically but emotionally. Happy, sad, angry, confused. If you pay attention closely music can be so healing.

Me personally, I don’t feel alone. I love music, dancing, singing. It is healing. My new addictions are writing and listening to music. There are so many healthy coping skills that you can do for yourself. It is finding what works best for you. In my opinion.

It could be anything. Playing an instrument, drawing, singing, dancing, walking, gardening, pottery, golf, hockey, soccer. Whatever it is that makes you feel free. For Myself, Music is a huge healing and coping skill. “Music feeds the soul”

Stay Shining

Separation Anxiety

I have always thought I was overly obsessive. If I sent someone a text and they didn’t respond right away, I get upset. Then I would say things that I didn’t mean to say. I get angry.

I get sad when people make plans and don’t follow through. I have put in my head that the people I want, don’t want me. Panic and anxiety. Fear and sadness. A state of depression.

I am not obsessive. I am worried you will leave my side. So to speak.

Separation anxiety makes relationships a bit tricky. I noticed I push hard to be noticed by someone. Once I get noticed, all I want to do is communicate with that said person. What I didn’t know, I get attached fast and easy. If my standards are not met I push away.

I have set my standards very high for people. Emotionally for the most part. It took me a bit to understand that “Life doesn’t revolve around me”. You know what revolves around me, is myself. Hahaha. Truly that’s my thoughts. I have always relied on everyone else to tell me what I should be doing. I would get upset if it was the truth. Ignoring people for being right. That’s what happens when you don’t know who you are. It happens when you don’t have self-Love.

Like my friend said “stop comparing yourself to others”. Dont rely on others to make you Happy. It is difficult at times, you can refocus yourself on you. You know why, because I believe in you.

Stay Shining