One day I was walking back with the kids from their public school. Alexander seen one of his friends. His friends Mom is Nicole. We decided to switch contact information so the boys could have a play date.

It took a long time for me to reach out. Unless she reached out to me. I can’t remember. We had the boys do facetime because of covid. They really enjoyed it. They got into little tiffs but nothing serious.

At this time Nicole’s husband was very sick. So, she was at home caring for her dying husband. I didn’t fully understand at first. As time went on Nicole and I started chatting more. I Don think we had an actual play date until after the Love of her Life passed.

I have heard of love stories but Nicole’s Love story is beyond words that I can describe. If it wasn’t for this Woman and her Love story I wouldn’t have started my Healing Journey.

I wish I could tell her story. It’s intense, Inspiring, Hopeful, Emotional. Oh I could go on with all of the words. Hahaha

I explained to her what my situation was at the time. That was when I was with my Ex Husband, I think. I don’t think we had separated at that time.

Anywho….. Nicole was there to Support me through it all and the Knowledge she has. She Shines so bright when she talks about it, Thankful for this Woman. Her writing is exquisite., You won’t be disappointed.

Stay Shining

“Just Do It”!

“Just Do It”! This sounds a lot easier said than done. For Myself at least. I stew on the thought of a task. I obssess over that task in my mind. It is very draining. So tiring.

I never understood what it meant fully to “Just Do It”. Today I awoke and did my usual, light a cigarette, get a glass of water, take my medicine, finish that cup of water because to me that’s important. Let D.O.G outside to pee. Make a coffee, go to the bathroom, then sit down and do basically nothing.

That’s my morning routine on a daily basis. Today, for some reason I just wanted to walk. I didn’t want to be at home. I wanted to go out. So I did. I had so much fear, shaking before I even left the house. I forced myself to walk because I wanted to. I remembered that I am doing want I want to do to better myself. It’s wasn’t going for a walk to the Lcbo or anything. It was just a nice long walk. Probably about 2 to 2 and a half hours.

My destination was no where. I just wanted to feel free and so I did just that. I overcame my fear of leaving my house. It felt so good.

I listened to him, I kept repeating in my mind to myself “Just Do It”. Deep breaths, if I felt anxious at all during my walk. I would hold my purse or figit with a plastic hair tie on my wrist. It did help, instead of squeezing my hands into fists, letting my nails push into my skin.

I hope that what I learned helps you to understand that part of you too. “Just Do It”

Stay Shining